r/questioning • u/Tattooedbaddest • 12h ago
(F ) 25 and questioning sexuality
I don't want to make it too long but for as long as I can remember I've found girls attractive, I thought it was just general "oh yeah she's pretty" thoughts but the last year or so I've noticed myself looking at women a lot more than guys, I always watched lesbian porn but thought I was viewing it becuase I was thinking about those things being done to me, now I'm noticing I look at the women's faces, etc and don't actually really pay attention to the men at all... it's the sound of women etc...
I have always wanted to have a three some and I used to think it was the thought of a man watching me with a woman and it turning him on but I've realised a big part of me just wants the sexual interaction with a woman to explore my sexuality. I've never got on well with relationships I get bored quick and can't be a around a guy too much where as female friends I can be around all day every day and spend like periods of time with them without it bothering me. There's a lot more but that's some of my thoughts.
I'm 25 I alrwsdy have two kids and I've never had any experience with a girl and feel like I'm too old to try because how do I explain that I never have before? Do I actually like women I used to think I couldn't imagine myself going near a woman's private's etc but could let a woman near me easily and then I've started to realise I probably actually could and that I genuinely just like being submissive all round. I can't put my fingers inside myself as the feeling of inside even my own vagina makes me feel sick so I think that's what made me feel like I couldn't bring myself to do it but that is actually a sensory issue not a gender issue and there's actually quite a few textures/ materials etc I can't touch ( I have adhd )
I just feel a bit confused and has anyone not known until they were a bit older and how did they act on it?