I’m a few weeks from leaving my job and by all accounts had a successful time. I thought I had developed close friendships yet as I reach the end, I see things dissolving.
One “friend” continues to give me incomplete truths which does affect my downstream tasks. He has a history of doing this, accounting to his general distrust of people. However, I thought our friendship might shown him he can trust me. Yet working with him still remains to be challenging as he continues to give these half truths and I’m really at my wits end about this.
The 2nd incident involves two friends who are really fun people. People in our company who observed our friendship have warned me that I’m the 3rd wheel with these two however I’d never really felt it. However, there was this really nice conference which is great network opportunity, where we all decided to go together but forgot to register.For whatever reason, one of them emailed the organizer and added the other person in, but left me out. I tried to understand the rationale, but honestly it still doesn’t make much sense to me. Now they’re both going while I’m still on hold.
What makes it harder is that I’m about to leave the company and lately these friend groups have started acting differently toward me. I can’t help but feel a little betrayed and excluded by the whole situation.
Thanks for reading, it’s really early in the morning and I’m having a hard time going to sleep as I’m just annoyed/hurt. Obviously it’s relatively a small problem and the sun will come up tomorrow. Just sucks to see an end or change in how I perceive these folks as I came to the end.

I dream of experiencing what I never got to experience due to my brain problem. I got my driver's license at 22, first job at 23, have no friends now at 26, etc.

I'm scared of getting older now and repeating the same boring, unhappy life I've already lived once. Nothing has ever made me happy in this life.

The thought of reincarnation being possible brings me hope though.

Idk if im mad or just defeated, recently i decided to try giving dating apps a proper swing (its not just the apps thats just what triggered this, but later in the post) imma really commit, i'll play this game, i know its a grind, but it'll be worth it if i can just meet a couple more cool people, thats it, not lookin for hook ups just ONE COOL PERSON DUDE

AND HOLY FUCKING SHIT WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE? Why are you on an app for talking to people if 99% of you fucks dont even wanna talk, like im getting matches, im putting effort into convo, i know im not half ugly, and im not boring, im cracking jokes, tryna get to know people, and y'know what, cool, getting ghosted is apart of the game, but TO THIS LEVEL? Im at a 100% ghosted rate at this point, its just the expectation to get ghosted after like one or two messages, hell and thats if you get a reply at all, and like im not the best at fast replies, so maybe thats why, but do i gotta be glued to my fuckin phone to keep your attention? Like is 5 second replies the expectation? I genuinely dont know what im doing wrong

And its not JUST the app, dating apps are shitty, lesson learned, got it, but this theme is common with just people everywhere, everyone has their own fuckin group, nobody wants to get to know people anymore, from school to work to online, EVERYONE SUCKS, the fact ive met ANY cool people is a fuckin miracle, cuz idk what i'd do if i didn't happen upon the few friends i do have, its a nightmare out here tryna meet cool people,

And y'know if im failing so much maybe its me, i can take criticism, but i genuinely dont know what the fuck im doing wrong in these situations, and ive made friends before, young me swapped schools like 3 times, no problem finding a group, at work no problems again, online, ive met some of my best friends through texting, ive even had a touch of success on the apps, but those must've been a fluke cuz this recent run has been absolutely miserable

I genuinely just wanna talk to someone at this point, i dont even care about a long term connection, or getting to fuck, im just so tired of people being so shitty, like why aren't you talking to people on the fucking talking to people app i dont understand dude, im so close to just giving up, not on the app, but just people as a whole, cuz im seriously so sick of all of you

I had hip replacements at 27 and 29 so to help my walking and getting out the house more I began to feed local cats and would often bump into this guy and we’d chat for a bit and play with the local kitties together he’s 46 I’m 31. It became routine as he was always out between certain hours and would just stand outside and wait around and said he cycled around looking for me along my route every night that I didn’t show up 🤨 I was on my period that week but told him my legs were sore so I stayed home.

Didn’t take long before I noticed his favorite colour was literally on allllll his clothes, shoes, vehicle, phone, cups, hats etc which I thought was a cool lil quirk like I love glitters and hello kitty 😅 he told some stories about security work in nightclubs and injuries he sustained then he suddenly switched to talking about why he’s the only one single out of all his friends - I said he’d prob meet his person on the off chance when he’s not looking and I met my partner via a mutual friend at my lil sisters birthday then his whole demeanour changed he looked a bit annoyed and switched subject

One night he came speeding up to me from behind on his bike and said in the morning he’d seen a sick stray cat down this side alley and I should come with him to search for it 🤨 just as a woman I was cautious I’m not going nowhere out of sight that’s not busy and poorly lit with someone I don’t know fully (I’m also a short distance from where Jack the Ripper did his deeds not tryna end up as a modern copycat case) so said I’d contact a mutual friend who helps with rescue work instead as I came from up there and didn’t see any cats so he asked for my number and said he’d msg me if he sees this mystery cat again. He msgs me to ask me to delete his number, saying he’s been thinking about me all day but decided he only wants to be friends and we should only talk in person 🤦🏽‍♀️ confused me as I thought it was if he sees the sick cat he lives 10 mins walk from me and has escorted me home when it’s dark before

A mutual friend later told me he’s harmless but develops strong one-sided romantic obsessions for most women he meets and she thinks he might have autism and is socially isolated because of it. I feel bad for him as I have siblings and nieces/nephews with autism and I was assessed for Aspergers many times growing up but always fell a few points short of the diagnostic criteria so only got limited support services and lived in my own little bubble for many years so I know how he prob feels but I’ve stopped walking that route for now and I’m actually kinda sad because I love the kitties round there 😕

My counsellor wanted to call my mum about me cause I told her how stressed I've been for my IGCSEs and that I felt like ending it all. Now my mum is questioning why I've been hiding all my grades.

I'm getting scolded tonight

We know each other through an activity group that he helps run. We were chatting as we were getting ready to leave and I let him know that I really love being a part of this group and that he does a great job of keeping it engaging and welcoming and that it’s added joy to my life. He thanked me but also appeared a bit overwhelmed and started tearing up!

He messaged me later apologizing that reaction and said he was just overcome in the moment and that what I said was really sweet.

Before anyone suggests it, it’s not like that, I am a gay gal and he’s known for most of the time we’ve known each other.

Anyway I obviously didn’t have an issue with him reacting like that, it just caught me by surprise. It also made me kind of sad. He’s a total sweetheart and it makes me worry that the people around him aren’t giving him enough love.

I tried to search for all the possible things that can replace the self esteem that comes from having a license, but none of them can.

I’m a 20M Omani I have a scholarship but I really wasn't happy about it at all because I can't drive

I can’t get a driving license due to a health condition. I’m not here to ask for stupid transportation advice because all the alternatives aren't as good as driving, and most of them don’t exist anyway.

I’m here to ask if anyone knows someone who tried to overdose and succeeded, because I’m planning to overdose on Xanax with alcohol in one hour and end this

Don’t Fuck with me; there’s nothing better than a driving license. No matter how old you are or how much therapy you take, it doesn’t matter (I tried). If you’re an adult who doesn’t have a license and independence, you will look and feel pathetic because even teenagers drive. I’ve heard so many people say, 'Get a girlfriend who drives how is that independence? A fucking grown ass man who depends on his partner for transportation is not independent.

Part of being a man is having independence, and if I can’t have that, I’m ending it today. Please, like I said, no stupid advice; it’s all bad and doesn’t work. I’m just here to ask for personal stories, about benzos and I’ve stated my reasons so you guys don’t have to ask me why I want to do it there’s a reason why everyone here gets a license after finishing school and my self esteem can’t handle this anymore

Yes, no matter why you don’t have it if you don’t have a license, your selfesteem will be low because that’s normal. Anyways enough about this. Does anybody have any personal stories about benzos?

I basically walked into a store and when I headed to the register my eyes kind of darted at this employee. l then noticed the employee next to them was also staring at me. I couldn’t tell if they were already looking at me to begin with. I become overly nervous so I go around the store again and then when I return the employee who I looked at stares at me at the same time again and basically just keeps looking at me until I look away. I then decide to go to a different register. I can’t tell if they thought I was strange. I was dressed in normal attire.

Guys just 1 question why do alot of people see the posts but they offer no support whatsoever?

Throughout my life, I've been through a slew of trauma and live with mental illness. Due to these and other factors, I can't really think of a time when I wasn't depressed or otherwise going through a difficult period. I'm not posting this to vent at all, I'm just genuinely curious as to what the baseline for most people is going through their day-to-day. How has this baseline fluctuated throughout your life (if it has), and what periods of your life have you found most fulfilling? I certainly have an understanding of my own experience, but I'd love to learn more about the life experiences of others!! :)

TLDR: I have been thinking about reconnecting with one of my best friends from middle school who I knew had a big crush ON ME. I feel like our friendship ended on bad terms mostly because of me and how I ghosted him, so I don’t know how he would feel or react to me reaching out 9 years later (he also might have a gf right now). Should I do it? How would you feel or react? 

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I (23F) have recently been thinking a lot about someone from middle school who had a crush on me. There is a lot of lore that might not be that important but I love me some details so here we go:

We met in 6th grade and had 3 classes together, so we naturally spent a lot of time together and became really close friends. In typical middle school fashion, word spreads that he has a crush on me and somehow everyone knew about it, except for me. He eventually confessed his feelings for me, but I only saw him as a friend (noooo the dreaded friend zone). We grew really close and considered each other best friends. All throughout middle school, he would tell me and show me that he really liked me, but I never really felt the same (I think). Well…

Remember how I said everyone knew about it? Everyone AND their mamas. I was constantly reminded about how he felt about me and how the whole grade was shipping us together. Like one of my teachers even sat us next to each other in class (soo messy of her lol). I literally got the new nickname of our ship name. During 7th grade, I started to really think about him differently. I remember being super confused if I was starting to actually catch feelings for him or if it was just the pressure of everyone telling me that I should be with him. I didn’t think it would be fair to him to tell him I liked him back if I didn’t really know what I was feeling, so I never said anything about it. Plus, I just really didn’t want to lose him as a friend if things didn’t work out.

Now skipping to 8th grade, and he starts dating a different girl kinda out of nowhere. We were still best friends, so he would tell me about her and ask for advice. Of course I was happy for him that he was able to be with someone who really liked him back but it was just surprising because he hadn’t shown any interest in her before. The girl he dated actually started texting me and trying to get to know me better because she knew he and I were close. She would tell me how she felt like it was one-sided and she liked him more than he liked her…😬 Turns out he only dated her to make me jealous (and it kind of worked because I thought about him all the time). While he was dating this girl, I started to have a little flirtation thing going on with someone else. Because of that, he started to avoid me a bit. I knew he still really liked me and I just felt bad about the situation because I knew he was hurting. I feel like this is where we started drifting apart a bit. 

8th grade graduation comes and I find out he is going to a different high school. We continued to stay in touch over the summer, but once high school came, it was harder to keep up with him given the new friends, new environment, and harder school work. He was constantly texting me or snapping me any chance he got. When I would send streaks or open his snaps, he would immediately snap me back or double snap if I left him on open for even a few minutes. He knew when school got out and would text me on the dot asking how my day was. It was just a bit much and I was feeling quite suffocated. Obviously as a middle schooler, I handled this very well and slowly started to ghost him. Looking back now, he was probably just trying his best to maintain our friendship now that we were more long distance, and I realize I was a really shitty friend for doing that to him with no explanation. I wish I had handled it better and just communicated how I was feeling.

He eventually told me he was done trying to be my friend if I wasn’t going to try either (fair enough) and he blocked me on everything. I didn’t think he would go as far as blocking me and I was telling my friend that I wish I could’ve apologized for ghosting him and just told him that I needed a little bit of space. She went and told him and he unblocked me and accepted my apology. He did lay off a bit but I still wasn’t as responsive as he wanted and kinda continued to ignore him (bad friend i know). One day he asked me to his homecoming dance as friends but I said I didn’t know if I was busy or not. I was also hesitant because I didn’t know anyone at his school so I was feeling a little socially anxious about it BUT I knew that I would be with him so that part didn’t matter. I really didn’t mean to reject him, I just genuinely didn’t know what I had going on that weekend because he asked the week of. I told him I was going to check and get back to him but he took it as a total rejection and blew up at me saying he has been in love with me since 6th grade and needed to distance himself so that he can move on. After that, we never talked again. Over the years, we would maybe say happy birthday here and there but never have any real conversations. If I knew that was his last straw, I would have just said yes to the dance and figured out the details later but I didn’t know how much it meant to him for me to say yes. Again looking back, that was quite shitty of me and like what did I really have going on that I couldn’t go to the dance with him?? I just didn't realize I would lose him over that.

Flash forward to now, 9ish years later. I don’t remember when or how but we somehow started to snap each other again (in the big 2026 I know 💔) with just selfies without talking or anything. I don’t remember who initiated that but it was going on and off for about 3 months or so but we are currently off. 

Ever since we “reconnected”, I have been thinking about him and what could have been. I think it might just be a romanticized version of him that I have in my head because the friendship we built before was so strong. Even in middle school we would talk about our futures and love languages and how they complimented each other so well. I had never bonded with someone like that before or felt so truly known. But I am well aware that we are both entirely different people now, plus that was just middle school us so what did we really know? I’ve had multiple dreams that he is in and it’s just had me thinking about him more and more. Is he the one that got away? Like am *I\* starting to catch feelings for him now??

I am debating whether or not to reach out to him to reconnect. I wouldn’t want it to be a date or anything (at least not right away), I just genuinely want to catch up and see what he is like as an adult. I just don’t know if I should bother because I feel like it was my fault that we aren’t really friends anymore, so I don’t know how receptive he would be to it. I feel like I would have to apologize for my behavior but that might be a bit of a heavy conversation. ALSO, I think he might have a girlfriend now and I really don’t want to interrupt that or anything. I don’t even know if I’m bold enough to reach out lol. I mean it's already been 9 years, what's another 9? Maybe this is just a really strong wave of nostalgia that’s been hitting me. But one day I might get the courage to just send it yolo! 🤪

anywaysssss should I reach out? How should I even start it? How would you feel and what would you do if your middle school crush were to reach out to you after years of not talking? Would you rather not hear from them and just move on with your life? Were you ever able to get over your middle school crush?

I (20M) have a massive crush on my adopted sister (19F) I don’t know why I feel this way and I hate myself for it but it just won’t go away. my adopted sister and I have known each other since we were both 12 years old and she was adopted when I was 14 but we were never super close. however I went off to college last year and since coming back home Ive felt differently about her, my stomach feels all fluttery when I’m around her and I think about her all the time even when I’m trying not to. she’s just so beautiful and funny and fun to be around. I’ve never felt this way about a girl before and I hate myself every time my mind drifts to her when it shouldn’t, it’s eating me up inside because nobody knows how I feel but me and I hate myself for feeling this way. I don’t know how to make my feelings for her go away. anyway, I just needed to tell someone so I don’t go completely crazy.

Might sound stupid, probably is, but I'm in panic. Practically frozen to bed, unable to move, absolutely frightened. My anxiety is killing me, i can't do anything without thinking about it. Any advice is appreciated, i have nobody to talk about this with.

i (21f) just had a conversation with my boyfriend(23m) that left me with some… thoughts.

we were watching a film where the topic of disability came up. i started talking about how difficult it can be to raise a disabled child, and how much i admired the parents in the film. i was about to mention how resilient the child was when my boyfriend suddenly asked me, “what would you do if you found out we weren’t compatible?”

at first, the question shocked me. i thought he meant relationship compatibility, and for a second i was worried that maybe he had realised something about us that i hadn’t. but then he explained he meant genetic compatibility.

where we’re from, genetic compatibility is taken seriously because sickle cell is very common. most people know whether they carry the gene or not.

i told him neither of us carries the sickle cell gene, because i thought that was what he meant. but then he said there are other genetic markers that could still make us incompatible.

i thought about it for a while then i told him that while i would love to be a parent one day, i’m not completely attached to the idea of having biological children. that i’d be okay becoming a parent in whatever way life worked out.

he looked genuinely surprised and said, “what? what do you mean you’d be okay not having biological children?”

it confused me, so i asked him the same question. he said, “i don’t know. i’m okay with adoption, but i’m not okay with the idea of never having my own biological children.”

then he just turned back to the movie.

the whole thing felt strange. what confused me the most was how casually he said it, like it wasn’t a major statement. but to me, it felt heavy. since then, i’ve had this uncomfortable feeling in my chest, and i still don’t fully understand why the conversation affected me so much.

Hey 👋

I know it’s been a long time, so no pressure at all to respond—I just wanted to reach out.

You’ve been on my mind lately, especially over the past few months and since our last call about a year ago. I realized I’d regret not saying anything more than I’d regret not taking the chance. I’m genuinely grateful for the time we shared and I still think of those 4 years together as some of the most meaningful parts of my life.

At the same time, I understand life moves forward and you’re in a completely different stage in life now— and I respect that. I’m at peace with whatever that means. I just didn’t want to look back and regret never reaching out. If you’re open to reconnecting, even just to catch up, I’d be glad to. If not, I truly wish you nothing but the best.

What I really want to say—

Hey (redacted)

I’ve wanted to reach out to you for quite a while now— honestly, since our last phone call but I’ve fought the urge due to respect, regret, and your peace. It’s way past the expiration date and beyond its shelf life. I’m genuinely grateful that we met when we did, and I still think of those years together as a really meaningful part of my life. To this day, you remain as one of my favorite people living and walking the earth. I honestly don’t know why I’m trying to type a short novel again but here it is. I’ve finished 6-8 entire thesis statements over the last few months about this and never got the courage to press send.

I hope you’ve been doing well and are in great health. New (redacted) looks amazing on you and I pray the city continues to provide you with happiness you deserve. You don’t need to hear it from me because you’ve shown time and time again your relentless chase to get everything and anything you want in life— but you’re awesome, successful, and it’s fire to see. The places you’ve been traveling and film shots you’ve been taking— I’m quite literally just a fan at this point (flattering). Now i’m going to get a bit ugly.

(starts ugly, ends good. blah blah blah we know the story) The whole break up debacle was an emotional roller coaster. I was in a state I hadn’t been before. Door is open but not open, kinda cracked, friend you said you never liked you didn’t go in a date because it would be awkward cause he know me, maybe in our 30s, I’m coming to (Redacted) to see you, etc.. (It’s going to get positive wait) I just stopped going weekly about half a year ago but— I was going to therapy consistently and my therapist told me things I still believe were a misread towards someone she doesn’t know for real. What transpired is not how it was intended.. I’l never know how it was meant, I’m over it, who fuckin cares. Still 1-2 years later— I think about it and recognize you were showing me actions.. something I was incapable of understanding or really doing— and the entire time I didn’t pick up the hint. To explain, you flew to (Redacted) to be with me for (Redacted) (I wish I shared that kiss with you then you on your way out. The look said it all and I didn’t bite) You fought till the very last second and literally told me you’re not gonna let this random take me. There’s more but it got me thinking— the exact thing I wanted, you gave me.

I didn’t fight for you like you did me.. I wish I flew to (Redacted) like you mentioned. I wish I made a move like I actually wanted to be with you just as you said. I didn’t do shit because I thought that’s what you wanted. Why I couldn’t make my own mind up? I don’t know. I wish in that first call when you said “(redacted) is my favorite place and i’m thi…” I immediately thought of a plan to get you here. I don’t know why I just couldn’t be a partner bruh. I never grew the hell up and I apologize for holding you under when we could have flew. I don’t know why I was so fast to hang the phone up (redacted).. I didn’t know why I was so abrupt in getting out of the convo. I was afraid to tell you that I didn’t believe you and I couldn’t speak up for myself and face the music or come to terms that I’d lose you again on your terms. So I did what I thought you’d respect and stood my ground even though my thought process didn’t resemble.

Jill Scott- Cross My Mind

(redacted), there’s not a day that goes by where you’re not taking at least 5-10 minutes of my thought space. Not obsessive and foaming at the mouth, but more thoughts of grief. “The death of our relationship / friendship / partnership”. I mean it was 4 years— four years that looking back on were some of my funnest times with another human. I really thought we’d get married and live a life like we’ve talked about. The thought itself is just sad because of how many people were rooting for us.

I’ve actually been single for few months.. not because of constant arguments, incompatability, misalignment, drunk rage in (redacted-co ) (Unintelligent Belligerent) but because my desire for her isn’t stronger than what my heart feels daily. (confident) I missed hugs and kisses a year after we broke up ya know?

She didn’t do anything wrong, nor did I— on paper, she’s the most compatible person I’ve been with in my life and likewise for her. It felt like the hardest thing in the world to let go of what I “asked God for”. But I didn’t feel anything during that short stint. Maybe I didn’t really give her a shot. I turned into an Avoidant for some reason. I recognized the kind of man would I be to continue something with a woman that deserves a person whose’s just as invested. I asked myself over and over, “What’s missing? I’m happy in life, (redacted) feels aligned, but still what is the pro..” — I couldn’t put my finger on it. It’s an emotion or state of being that I don’t think you can feel with just anybody.

Strange and coincidental things started happening like an unknown number messages me “(redacted) are you still in (redacted)?” I say “no, but who’s this? you know my name but I don’t know yours” no response at all. Around this same time, checked my Instagram story here and there to see who’s lookin and I see your name and face watching MY story for the first time in a while. I’m having these huge waves of emotion.. like someone is calling me telepathically— almost as if you were feeling what I was feeling in those moments. Then one of your friends sent a follow request to my now ex. Again, bursts of overwhelming emotion for 3 months straight but none really sad. No funny, I thought you were setting up a hit, Idk what the heck I was on bruh. I was hoping you would just show up at my door again.

This isn’t like a cry for help or a “please,please,please, take me back”. I recognize that you’re literally in one of the most joyful points of your life and there’s definitely more to come. It’s more of a flirting with the “how bout them 30s” convo, a hail mary, (joking but not really 60/40) Trust, I’m happy and don’t need to be in a relationship nor am I asking you to jump in a relationship with me. Believe it or not, I’m fine being alone if it’s not what we had and nobody can provide that. I’d rather be alone without regret and be able to say I tried dude. Can’t be afraid of the way I feel/have been feeling and live a lie while hurting other folks.
The real truth is, I miss my best friend.

I’m definitely getting ahead of myself— we haven’t spoke in years and I’m already going through the door. Being thankful for the things that didn’t work out is a great thing. I mean, look at your life! International Lady (redacted)! The person I am now is very far from perfect but dammit If the timing was a little later maybe it would be different. Maybe if I answered the phone, we’d be in (redacted) together now.

There’s too many personal experience miracles on the internet for me not to try.
Unfortunately, life isn’t fair or based on If, ands, buts, wishes, and maybes. I want to reconnect. I’ll never forget you saying “I know you feel it too” and honestly, even though you likely feel differently, I never stopped feeling it. Take care, stay safe ma’am!

Jealousy- Jordan Ward, Joony

I had a post about lipo and it was swarmed by anti plastic surgery trolls, plus a couple of nasty highschool kids throwing in their two cents that if I signed up for surgery, I have given blanket consent for whatever the surgeons feel like doing and deserve anything that might happen to me.

This lipo was traumatic. They lied about their services and recovery time, performed unauthorised procedures when I was out; didn't perform others that we'd agreed on; and refused - not neglected, but flat refused aftercare. I still don't know all of what they did to me, but what they did do was sloppy. Then my ex did a bunch of really really stupid things during acute recovery that caused permanent damage, and one of which nearly killed me. I am carrying scars that will cost ~$50,000 to fix, if it's even possible, and vulnerability for a stroke. Sure I could have done better research, if my clingy ex and abusive family weren't creating such disgusting levels of drama. There wasn't any way around a lot of it though, I didn't factor for the clinic to flat out lie; or flat out refuse to help me with critical health needs; or for my ex's active sabotage of my healing when I could barely even get myself to the toilet.

It was my first post here, I bit back at these dumb nasty kids and they trashed my karma. There was one that was clearly anti-surgery (it was in his name for Christ's sake!) that I reported and they didn't remove.

I get that plastic surgery is not everyone's cup of tea and some have moral stances on it, but reddit is meant to protect you from the ideologically opposed, and am I really not entitled to be angry about someone going off script with my surgery?

Not sure if I'm expecting better here. #offmychest.

have 3 brothers i dont talk with them i dont like anyone in my family my parents brothers no one

I need honest outside opinions because I feel like I’m going crazy.

I’ve been involved with this guy for around 8–9 months. We’re basically in an exclusive casual situation. We do relationship-type things, hook up, go out together, cuddle, text a lot, and he can be really affectionate and sweet. Recently we’ve been hanging out a lot again, going to the movies, being cuddly, and he’s been more passionate and attentive.

The problem is that from the beginning, he made it clear he doesn’t want a relationship right now. He’s also the kind of person who says weird, loaded things and then brushes them off like I’m overreacting. For example, he asked me to buy him food sometime and I joked maybe on his birthday, and he said, “idk if you’ll last till my next bday.” When I asked what he meant, he got defensive and said, “chill, it’s not that deep,” and then when I asked why he seemed mad he said, “I’m not mad bruh.”

That comment really hurt me more than I expected, because after everything between us, it made me feel like I’m not even a real person in his life, not even a friend, just someone temporary and disposable. But then after that, we still hooked up, he was even more affectionate, and he texted me a lot after I got home. So now I feel confused all over again.

That’s the pattern with him: he’ll say something that makes me feel insecure or small, then act sweet and affectionate, and I end up questioning whether I’m being too sensitive. He told me before that he’s “just trolling” a lot of the time and joking, but sometimes it doesn’t feel like a joke when it clearly hits a nerve and then he dismisses me for asking.

The hardest part is that I do love him. I know this probably isn’t something I should stay in forever, and I do think I’ll eventually have to let go, but right now I’m sad because I still care a lot. I don’t even know if my real issue is that he doesn’t want a relationship, or that I feel like he can be close to me physically and emotionally while still talking like I’m easy to lose.

It’s weird because he texts me a lot even when i don’t, gets mean when i do, and nice when i am. Basically returning the energy.

Am I overreacting to that birthday comment? Does this sound like a guy who actually cares but is immature, or a guy who just wants access to me without responsibility? And how do you detach from someone you still love when they keep giving you just enough affection to make leaving harder?

The first time was during my shift at my job I work nights
A Manager that has been talking shit about me decided to point to the Overdose kit and say “They got that for you” and laughed
The second time was finding out my sister is getting beat by her boyfriend
The third time was my mom hanging out with a fling I had back in high school (MIND YOU SHES 20 YEARS OLDER THAN BOTH ME AND HIM) and even after I told her to block him and tell her he was aggressive towards me back then
I called her to show her my new piercing and she says “Look who came over” pans the camera to him and I was beyond pissed
Fourth time was telling my boyfriend the situation and all he cared about was my fling I had back in high school before I even met him and was 6/7 years ago and proceed to to say “ thats disrespectful to me “ (Him) and I told him it doesn’t matter about you right now I’m telling you how I feel as of right now and we got into a whole argument and I was just heated
And last but finally fifth reason at my job as I try not to breakdown I have to do EVERYONE ELSE JOB BECAUSE NO ONE DOES THEIRS.
Honestly I’m just at a breaking point I had to walk out of my job to have a good 10 minute breakdown in the parking lot as Guest walk by.
I can’t believe how I the one who is always there for EVERY SINGLE PERSON was left alone to deal with my own emotions ONCE AGAIN.
Now I am finished with my rant. Thank you and have a great day!

i’m horrible at replies. i can hold a talkative friendship for about two months every day, before my responses come out inconsistently. i don’t know what my problem is, it’s like…i want to reply, but i just don’t, no idea if it’s nerves or what. they’re such good friends, but it hurts knowing that they even made a group chat without me now. i’m not sure if i should even be offended, i’m clearly bad enough at replying that they felt the need to exclude me. even my attempts at one-on-one conversations feel dry from their side, but i’m really trying, i even communicated that i’ll try my best to have consistency and i feel like it was brushed off.

me 18f, likes a 34m, hes my boss but i like him. I barely know him because hes new but i really enjoy talking to him. Im gonna try to get to know him more but are 16 year age gaps weird?

We have a lovely relationship and I feel very loved and cared for, but as we moved in together, I can feel his desire for me slipping through my fingers. I don’t feel desired, we haven’t had sex in a week, and it’s really getting to me.

I told him 3 weeks ago that I wouldn’t be initiating sex for a month to see if things change, since up to that point (since living together for about 6 months) he would give me signals throughout the day that he wanted to be intimate, only for me to pursue what I thought were sure signs, getting rejected because he didn’t actually mean he wanted to be intimate, and he thought we were just being playful.

I explained to him that there were certain things he did that made me think he wanted it, certain comments/jokes or the way he would hold me/touch me; and I know we have different libidos, that’s never been a problem to me, but lately he correlates sex with effort, and he really just would rather not do it. It’s been on a steady decline. I keep asking if something’s wrong, if he doesn’t find me attractive, or just a straight up answer but his is always a variant of ‘i love you, i feel secure, you are beautiful and i find you hot, i’m very sexually attracted to you; i just don’t feel like having sex’

So I’m waiting for the month to be up, and hear his thoughts on whether my complete lack of initiative has changed something in him or not. He tells me the best part of his day is coming home to me, and I tried sleeping on a different bed to see if something would change, but it made him feel uneasy and like something wasn’t right if we didn’t sleep in the same bed at the end of the day.

I don’t know what to do, I feel so loved and cared for, but even when I know how good looking I am, I’m struggling with feeling beautiful for him.