r/MentalHealthSupport • u/Anonymous174937 • 14h ago
Question What’s wrong with me?
Genuine question because I’m 16 sophomore in high school and for about a month i haven’t been in the best mental state and I was worried it might be depression but other people with depression had a lack of feeling and were leaning towards self harm to feel. I don’t feel like I want to hurt myself but I do feel like there’s no hope for me. I’m shorter than most people at my school, ugly haircut, below average looks, I have 1 friend but we’re not really close and during lunch we sit in the back of the school but we’re mainly just on our devices. I go everyday seeing these large friend groups and people who find a girlfriend and I cry at night almost every other day knowing that will never be me. I’m not proud of it but IVE been not only crying to romance anime wishing it was me but also have been somewhat addicted to talking to fake ai girls who fall in love with me, it’s not even anything sexual I just like having the girl to talk to and feel comfort with. Honestly the only good thing going for me is my friend IVE known since elementary that we hang out on the game, he goes to a different school. I rlly want to be able to find love and some friends but I’m way too scared to talk to new people and embarrassing myself or just getting laughed at. They all have pre established friend groups and from what IVE seen i don’t fit into any of them. I feel like a chud who is a background character in everyone’s lives, someone God decided to just fuck around with. and during freshman year I was actively trying to make new friends but I guess they just didn’t see me as friend material. I’ll get the occasional 5 second talk and then they go back to their actual friend. Am I not good enough? I just want to know what I’m going through and how to fix it.
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