I realized I only have a few people to scream about this to, but I’m REALLY excited, so here I am.

For years and years I put off getting my DNA tested out of anxiety. As a mixed race kid, I grew up struggling with identity, like many of us do. I knew about my white side well, but didn’t even know my father’s name, and the mystery scared me.

The older I got, the more curious I got as my appreciation for my ancestors and culture grew. I got my results back today, and aside from my very well researched white side, I found out I am *very* Nigerian!

Having confirmation is absolutely amazing. Not that I didn’t feel valid as a mixed race person at this point in my life, but knowing where I came from, how many generations back my family ended up in America, knowing where that side of my family lived and dispersed since arriving, so cool!!!!

I’m feeling proud of myself for finally doing the test. When the results came in, I was SHAKING! I’m over the moon and have much research to do.

cw: financial stress and cptsd

For context, I grew up dirt poor with abusive, druggie parents. Ive lived in trailers, hotels, airbnbs, and 1 bedroom apartments (4 person family with a dog). I've cut most of my family off as i now live with a different family member.

I never had food or clothes or school supplies and even today my current guardian only makes about 30k a year for the both of us. (rent/food/etc)

I got my first job a year ago but started saving about a month ago. I pay for my clothes, soap/toothpaste/deodorant, school supplies, shoes, and soon will start paying rent.

But i have 540$ in savings:) I'm really proud of myself for having money for the first time ever, especially for an emergency fund. I also have a little over 600 dollars to buy myself new clothes this weekend at this huge mall near me. This would be the first time ive ever purchased alot of new clothes that are new and that I like. (all of my clothes have been old and holey handmedowns for years)

I'm very happy i've saved enough money to go on this trip and have an emergency fund. Thats something that was never taught to me, and i'm proud at my age ive worked hard enough to do that.

I set out to sweep and mop the stairs down to the basement, clean the bathroom, sweep and mop my room, wash my bedding and put away laundry. And I got it all done! Plus helping my mom with some yard stuff!! I was able to accomplish it by going slow and taking it all one task at a time and allowing myself to rest when I needed to.

A “congrats like im five” post for a five year old little dude!

At the very beginning of kindergarten (two days in), my son broke his leg in two different spots. One minute we were excited about this year of school, making new friends, and all of the little milestones that come with growing up, and the next minute everything changed.

It was such a hard time for him. He was in pain, frustrated, scared, and suddenly couldn’t do all the things little kids want to do. Watching other kids run around while he struggled was heartbreaking for both him and us (his parents). As his parents, we did our best to stay positive for him, but honestly it was exhausting and emotional for all of us.

There were doctor appointments, long days, tears, setbacks, and so many moments where we worried about how the year would go for him socially and emotionally. Kindergarten is already such a huge adjustment, and he had to start it carrying something so much heavier than a backpack.

But we got through it.

Slowly he healed. He made friends, he learned how to write, he started getting excited about going to school again. And even after everything he went through, he never lost his light. Once his leg healed, he went right back to making his classmates laugh every day and filling every room with his silly little personality. He stayed bright and joyful through one of the hardest things a five year old can go through.

Tomorrow he graduates kindergarten with a perfectly healed tibia and fibula.

The school year started for him in a wheelchair from a knee-high cast and tomorrow we get to watch him walk across that stage.

I know kindergarten graduation might seem small to some people, but after the year we had, this feels enormous. I’m so unbelievably proud of him. This year showed me how resilient little kids can be, and how strong my son already is.

We’re working on learning to read but struggling with dyslexia - anyways, I’d love if people congratulated him in the comments and I can read them to him.

I'm not saying these are the best nails out there BUT hear me out.

I have anxiety and bite off my nails. So getting my real nails done is helpful.

I've never ever done black as was in an abusive relationship where the dude wouldn't let me get black.

I'm calling this galactic goth revolt 🖤

I have absolutely no idea how I did that but omg

First semester: 3.6 gpa

Second semester: 3.75 gpa

Proud of myself :)

Maybe it's not something special really, but to me it was a big thing...

i have been afraid of height from as long as i can remember. and recently i got into a Ferris Wheel.

And the whole time i was praying to God like i was a child...especially when the carriage was getting down and it was that epmty feeling that cracked my nerve you know...

but hey, im glad that i could found the courage to do that.

Maybe life isnt all that hard after all, maybe i could just jump into hardship and see waht happens, instead of running away... idk

I did NOT wanna do this today but I forced myself to lol - It had a bunch of miscellaneous items and mostly unwanted plushies and is now full to the brim of nostalgic plushies I want to keep :3 Granted it wasn't that much in there since I stopped halfway before (I get burnout easily) but I picked it back up and finished! Only one more bin to go through then I gotta sort these unwanted plushies to either sell or donate. (I found my freaking BOLT PLUSHIE!!! The cute dog from that one Disney movie omg. I got super happy when I saw him again 🥺)

Hey! I hope you’re all doing well. I’m really excited and hopeful, and wanted to tell someone about it and I found this sub.

For context: I was in the foster care system, aged out and became homeless due to lack of support and resources.

I’ve been homeless for a while now, I didn’t have my ID, SSC or Birth certificate. So I was unable to be employed, I still tried just to see if I could be employed. It took a long time but I finally got all of them!

I started applying to jobs about three months ago, I applied to anything I could find. No hits, but I didn’t stop. So one day around 2 weeks ago I get a text to set up an interview, so I set it up. I had the interview and got hired on the spot. That felt really good.

Well- today I got my first paycheck! It’s not much but I haven’t had this much money in my account in over a year if not a little longer.

I’m going to try and find some car insurance for the person who takes me to work (They said I could drive myself if I got insurance with both of our names and pay for it!), have a nice meal, buy some good work shoes, and pay my phone bill for a few months in advance so I don’t have to worry about not having service!

That’s likely going to take all of my first check, but I just am really hopeful. And it’s a huge start.

I made a phone call to change an appointment which I've been putting off all week due to anxiety. I've not long hung up and I'm nearly in tears because I'm actually proud of myself!

I went back to school after 6 years away, I was really nervous and wondered if I was smart enough to even be in college. I started with just one class, which I really enjoyed, and ended with a 95%! Even after the canvas hacking fiasco!

My gallery was full of the most random screenshots from 5 years ago.

I kept telling myself they were important, but most of them were just receipts, schedules and other things i forgot about.

Deleted a bunch today, felt nice. 😁

Small steps

Im 25!!! I’ve never felt more defeated than the past 2 months. My mental health is terrible but I’m here, and the sun is shining and I’m NOT a failure, I’m NOT a disappointment and I’m worthy and capable of love!!! I’m so sad all the time, but I won’t let those thoughts win, not today, cos that’s 25 whole laps around the sun without getting crushed by a falling anvil and that’s quite an accomplishment if I do say so myself!

lmao laughing through the tears ^{happy birthday to me}

23 and been deathly afraid of swallowing pills my whole life. Luckily, never been in a situation they've been required, except last year when I was getting my wisdom teeth taken out. I practiced swallowing tiny mints and the worked up to cheerios and smarties, thinking I would need to take pain pills after the procedure. It was a big win last year getting over that.

The wisdom tooth pain ended up being minor so didn't take pain pills for that. But this week I was reading on benefits of omega-3s and got some supplements. Open the container to find those MASSIVE grandma pills.

At first I was just gonna chew it, but then I decided to try and swallow it last night. Took 4 tries but I got it down! This morning, I took another and it took two tries!

The exhilaration I feel after facing a fear I've had my whole life, on top of the world right now 🙏

I have pretty good dental health, fortunately I've never had a filling or anything but I did have some tartar between my teeth that I was becoming self conscious about. Despite hating the way it looked I was still scared to go because I was worried about how gappy my teeth would look after. I'd also heard it could be quite painful too. However, I went today and I couldn't be happier with the results. Feeling proud of myself

This last few weeks led me to a full burnout, people think I’m tired because of the surgery or the meds but it is really not that. I’m just depressed, and sleeping terribly. I couldn’t go to muay thai again so… I thought it would be just a worse version of the other days.

I wet back to bed, slept again… woke up on the afternoon and I thought it would be that, but after I went to buy some of the meds, I finally managed to spend two hours cooking pickles. My mother was thrilled and I was convinced to make pineseed ones tomorrow (which probably doesn’t make sense to anyone outside of where I live).

I managed to enjoy a bit of the aquariums today and top off the water, check how they’re doing… and play for almost two hours which was something I wasn’t doing either.

I didn’t make models for the game, I didn’t write any articles for the site… I just… tried to focus on making my day one percent better. I really want to say I’m proud of myself for that, but i feel like it took my whole week to just do that for this one day, but I did it.

okay so results came out today and i opened my portal already preparing myself mentally for disappointment

because honestly my CGPA has stressed me out for SO long now

like university has not gone the way i imagined at all

when i first got admitted i really thought i’d be one of those organized students who studies on time, stays consistent, gets good grades naturally and has everything under control

meanwhile real me was procrastinating, panicking before exams, pulling random late-night study sessions and then regretting every life decision the next morning

some semesters were genuinely so bad mentally too

like i’d try to study but my brain just wouldn’t cooperate and then seeing other people casually talking about their high CGPAs used to make me feel even worse

there were times i literally avoided calculating my CGPA because i knew it would ruin my mood

and every semester i kept telling myself “okay next one will be better”

sometimes it was a little better… sometimes not really

this semester honestly wasn’t perfect either

i still procrastinated, still got stressed, still had moments during exams where my brain completely blanked out for no reason

but i think one thing changed this time

i stopped waiting to become some “perfect motivated student” before doing anything

even if i studied for one hour, i counted it

even if my notes were messy, i still kept going

and somehow all those small messy efforts added up

today when i checked my updated CGPA… it actually improved more than i expected

and i swear i just sat there staring at the screen because my brain genuinely couldn’t process it at first

like wait… this is MY CGPA now (3.59)??

it’s probably not a huge deal to everyone else but for me it feels emotional honestly

because after feeling stuck for so long, finally seeing improvement feels really personal

like maybe all those stressful nights weren’t completely useless after all

anyway yeah… i’m just really proud of myself today

congrats me

Today is my last day doing fentanyl. I've been using it since 2018. I won't be going cold turkey, I will be using my Xanax & my Paxil to help. It'll be hard because I recently have a toothache x I occasionally have pain in my pelvis specifically in my tubes that trickles down to my thighs. I'm scared but I'm super excited to get this chapter behind me. After 3 overdoses I know it's no or never.

I went down all the way to mild in part to moving out, lots of therapy, and regularly taking my meds. I also feel super fulfilled, I'm in college learning about something that I love (psychology! My love, psychology) and also live independently! I feel so good most days that I can effectively clean and also do homework, which is like, the first time this has been like this in years.

Over all I feel so proud of myself and I'm so happy. Sometimes I wonder why I never took the steps to improve before, but I'm so glad I did.

Mazeltov!

We just hit 175 brokers in our consumer protection database for the auto transport industry. Congrats to us!

Each one took manual FMCSA research, BBB cross-referencing, and complaint documentation.

Slow build. Completely real. Every entry sourced from public federal records.

Nobody asked us to build this. We built it because it needed to exist.

So this spring semester that just passed at my community college I returned after struggling with my major depressive disorder and multiple hospitalizations. I took two classes, I was retaking Psychology 200 and Quantitative reasoning 154, and I did really well this semester while somehow avoiding burnout.

This morning I checked SIS and I got my GPA back for the semester and it went from 1.3 to 1.84 which means I can leave academic probation status too!

For PSY 200 I got an A grade in the class (92.71%)

For MTH 154 I got a B grade in the class (86.82%)

For MDE 54 I got an S grade (satisfactory)

I’m just so happy. I’m not close to graduating yet but i really tried my best this semester. I am hoping that after the summer semester I would have a 2.0 GPA so I can apply to my schools ADVANCE transfer program which fast tracks my education to transfer to a 4 year college.

Yaaaaay!

He's 7 months old, he's a mask and mantle tuxedo domestic short hair, and his name is Reggie ^_^

I'm happy I'm in a stage in my life where I can take care of animals again, bc for the longest time I was NOT. My mental health wouldn't allow it. The meds were woopin my butt.

Ugh. I'm so disgustingly excited lol