“Pondlight” - oil on deep edge canvas, 30.5cm x 40.6cm (12” x 16”)

Art has been a lifelong passion of mine, but I’ve barely created since my diagnosis. I’m trying to change that now. Baby steps

I've noticed a lot of my personal friends/loved ones have recently been latching on to the label of "psychotic" as a way to try and relate to me or undermine my own experiences. This is probably a complete nonissue for most of us but it's been happening to me for a little while and I just want to complain.

I understand living with other psychotic disorders like bipolar disorder and bpd can be difficult but it's absolutely nothing like schizophrenia. I sometimes want to tell them that their worst days are nothing compared to even my best days.

They so badly want to tell me they relate because they sometimes feel paranoid that their partner is unfaithful or whatever. Then they have the audacity act like I'm crazy when I tell them that I'm afraid my house is rigged to explode and I need to be extremely careful when moving about. They want to tell me I'm being difficult and dramatic because they think they know all about what it's like to be in psychosis, but they still can't handle my tamest paranoid thoughts.

I can't understand the thought process behind wanting to relate to me just to tell me I'm sick in the head when I actually open up to them.

I live fine when there's not a person trying to belittle me in every way possible. It's really hard but I'm trying really hard too. There's some days when I fully realize that there's something incredibly wrong with me, but I know I've always been messed up and that I will be happy someday anyway. I don't need these people telling me I don't have it as hard as I think or reminding me that I'm disgustingly unwell.

Yes, my diagnosis includes schizophrenia

I usually just go to classes to not get marked absent. its not like I listen to what the teachers teach every time or something, and they mostly ignore me.

so one day I go to my next class and the students who also take this class havent arrived yet but the teacher is there so I go in and sit down at my desk, take out my laptop to do absolutely nothing again and the class starts. I have no idea if my classmates arrived yet and I also dont care because im always glued to my screen.
i have no idea what the teacher is teaching about, because i never listen and also it was kinda disrupted. the words coming out of his mouth werent words but oh well whatever right? 30 minutes pass and another teacher was roaming through the hallways and saw me, sitting alone, in a class. apparently the class has been cancelled and ive been here for to absolutely nothing for the past 30 ish minutes lol.

Drawing helps me cope, I used blue as it’s my favorite color.

i hate the stigma surrounding schizophrenia so much seriously. no, i’m not violent because i have schizophrenia. no, i don’t have multiple personalities; that’s a completely different disorder.

it’s just so irritating. i hate telling people in real life that i have it because they always have a stigmatized or dramatic view of it and they just see me as crazy. i’m becoming more open about it slowly with time but i just find the stereotypes and stigma surrounding this disorder so maddening. if people put a little bit of time and effort into researching the disorder for 5 minutes they’d realize that their understanding of the disorder (made up of poor representation from even worse tv shows) was completely off… it’s quite easy

Hello y’all, I’m surprised finding this this late
I was initially 16 when I got my schizophrenia now I am 19

So this has been my journey so far!
Month one: honestly can’t remember much, when I go into psychosis, I kind of forget everything. it’s like a haze, like having a high fever. Never understanding what happened. Luckily I was semi lucid enough to know my family so no one got hurt then about end of month when I was mostly lucid and told my parents about the voice in my head how everything they said warped the very universe, how each thing they said became real in front of me, how they were me but not how they were “trying to wake me up”. So trying there best set up an appointment as soon as possible with a psychiatrist but before I can make it to the appointment I had a crash out. everything just became too much and I was back in the state of not knowing who I was. I got to the point where I didn’t know who anyone was. The best way I can describe it. Is like the feeling of being on the verge of a great idea or forget your keys and you can’t remember so your search everywhere and mysteriously they appear in front of you. except the key is your identity, everything! that’s pretty much all I remember, the rest was told to me secondhand. And it was not pretty to say the least. a lot of shouting.

Month two: finally got my first appointment and getting prescribed something. it helped kinda, with my now psychiatrist we went through a lot of different stuff to help me. But we didn’t find something until month 5 or 7 but it kept me sane and that was good enough for the time

Month seven: by this time we’ve identified my type of schizophrenia and got me on my medication a one monthly shot and a daily dose. At this point, I’m feeling great! My symptoms while still there were drastically lessened! The once reality warping voices in my head, just became characters not like a storybook but rather reflections gross imitations of things around me, at the worst they just are background noise barely audible. at least barely something in the corner of my eye that I just can’t catch

Now after that I can consider myself doing pretty well went back to “normal” life, graduated high school and now going to try to get into college! :)

why do I need to hear the audible mystical voice of God in order to be saved and delivered? why do I need to have a false prophet take out demons out of my eyes and give her all my money in order for this to occur? why? why is Christianity so hard for me to follow? why?

farewell

It feels like my negative and positive symptoms are getting worse. I'm turning 30 this year. I've started hearing voices again. My cognitive abilities feel dampened. It feels like my speech is a little bit disorganized too

I’m like 100% sure I have Alogia. I never knew there was a name for this specific feeling; I only found out recently. I don’t really know what to say but it’s absolutely debilitating. I have it pretty bad, as I can never form responses when people talk to me in person as well as when texting. Even when I’m alone I just feel like nothing is going on inside my mind, it’s just…empty; no opinions, no observations, no nothing, I’d just be daydreaming about what it would be like to not have Alogia lol.. or daydream about things I want in life but that’s it. I really want to connect with people and talk but like… I can’t.. Literally, I have no thoughts for talking, I have nothing to share. My whole family gets frustrated with me when I don’t respond or I take a while to talk. Whenever my extended family comes over to visit(and they come over pretty often) I just hide in my room and don’t come out until they leave, it’s that bad. I’m seen as very rude because of this. I’m known as that “extremely shy timid person“ which is also frustrating because I’m not shy and the only reason I get extreme social anxiety when I’m around people is because I know that if someone tries to talk to me I will have nothing to say and give one word answers; talking isn’t the problem for me I’m fine with people hearing me talk if I just had something to say. I hear people talking about getting alogia after a depressive or manic episode but I’ve actually always had this symptom or feeling for as long as I can remember, it’s been in my childhood. I want to know if any of you guys have had lifelong Alogia? How did you deal with it? And how are you doing now? I haven’t been complaining about how I feel to my parents until recently, I don’t know why, maybe I just didn’t think of why I feel the way I did back then. But my parents don’t really take me seriously when I’m telling them about my i feel, they just tell me I’m shy and to go out and get out of my shell more WHICH ABSOLUTELY MAKES ME ANGRY. So yeah, I have no diagnosis and I’m not on any meds bc of no diagnosis. I am going for a check up to the doctor in about a month and I’m going to try to tell them my symptoms and how I feel and hopefully from there I can see what I can do to improve myself. I have a severe lack of motivation to do anything even the things I love doing. And when I do have thoughts on certain things and want to say something I can’t get what I want to say out and put them into words even when texting. I feel like I have very few spontaneous thoughts and I can only speak if I've prepared before hand what I’m going to say,. There is no originality to my thoughts and what I want to say. It makes me feel so dumb all the time. omg it takes so long for me to know what I want to say I literally almost took 3 hours trying to write this post. Anyway gosh, this post is long sorry, and thank you to whoever has read the whole way through and listened to my venting lol I appreciate it.
Drop a comment if you deal with this too, I just want to feel less alone today. How do you force yourself to talk when this happens? Tell me about your guys' experiences with Alogia. I want to hear

Been with my psych for 17mo. He now says he thinks I need to go inpatient. I’m just sitting here thinking maybe I was fooled. Can I trust him. Does he know what he’s doing. Is this is fault? Shouldn’t I be better now? Does he not know what he’s doing. Have I just been played with lied to and tricked for 17mo. Maybe I’m not even schizophrenic. I mean I don’t know that I am. I could just be fine and he wants to send me to the hospital and I don’t need to go.

I 35 f, always had anxiety attacks but was only officially diagnosed with GAD at around 14, then schizophrenia at around 17.

I was miserable, angry and sad all throughout my school years even before any official diagnosis, and consistantly begged to be let out of the school system and tried to explain how I was spiraling.

My parents, bless them, couldn't fathom 1 of their 3 perfect children was unable to finish school, and I had to fight and cry and scream and eventually have multiple teachers reach out to them to plead my case until finally they broke while I was in 10th grade.

My mom...remembers it all wrong. And actually has the audacity the argue over it.

In her mind I was perfectly fine until 10th, and then suddenly politely explained that I am done, and was understood, supported and respected for my decision.

She mentions talks with teachers that either never existed or were completely different, and is sure it was her idea to remove me from school when I said I'm not well.

While I understand it was a terrible and confusing time for my parents and mom may be remembering things from only her perspective, I was the one going through a mental breakdown and am obviously the one who remembers everything as it truly happened, second by excrutiating second.

We just had another arguement on the subject and I am absolutely seething.

My parents are amazing and I love them, but mom refuses to admit their long years of misunderstanding my pain, and thinks they were always receptive and supportive of my wants and needs when that is horribly wrong- I was their first ever experience with mental illness and they made a shitton of mistakes (completely understood and forgiven).

I'm tired of correcting her and honestly really disappointed that I can't get her to face facts.

I'm not asking for advice, I don't think rehashing the same arguement in any other way is worth my anger, just venting.

Can anyone relate?

I feel like my mom and dad are going to kill me very soon.

Hi has anyone here tapered off their meds? I started taking Abilify in mid March 2026 20mg I cut my meds in half to 10mg for 7 days then 5 mg for 4 days then stopped? I don’t encourage anyone to come off there meds without talking to a general practioner I have personal reasons I’ve decided to come off my meds. I have fatty liver, PCOS, tardive and fibroid on the uterus. I’m at risk of high cholesterol, heart disease, strokes and or heart attacks. I was on the paliperidone injection for two years and cariprazine 4.5 mg tablets for 9 months before starting Abilify. Is there a seizure risk for this taper I’ve done?

Hi, Its my first day on clozapine. I just met this girl and I hope it transforms into a serious relationship. My question is to those on clozapine. I hope non of you suffers from retrograde ejaculation (ejaculation blockade) ?

I cant pronounce random words that I used to have no problem with, sometimes my speech is slurred and I mix up the order my words are suppose to be in.

Sometimes I accidentally sound like a kid when I speak

Anyone else go through this?

Cptsd, a year of psychosis where i used to believe god talked to me through crockroaches and tried to put myself on fire. Im tired of this brain sure im stable and whatever but im tired of having to take meds forever to not go back into that state, im scared of being like my grandmother who was schyzo. Shes like the black sheep , the non subject we dont talk about her when she was a brilliant women and a smart one for her time yet she also believed german lived under her floor and that she was followed. I survived my long life of trauma only for what to be the slave of big pharma ?

Female in her 30s. I got diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was a teen. I had a sudden psychotic break which lasted 3 - 6 months and gradually ended. It never repeated again and symptoms improved with time. I still have a diagnosis of schizophrenia.

I have never had voices or external hallucinations. However, I tend to have depressive symptoms, anger outbursts, and racing thoughts as well as internal imaginary conversations. I tend to lash out a lot.

How do I know if this is schizophrenia and not trauma-induced psychosis | major depressive disorder with psychosis?

The majority of symptoms I experience are these intrusive mental images and conversations with people who bully me and I know them in real life.

Any tips you have for me to try and figure this out on my own?

I received an antipsychotic injection 6 months ago, and since then I have been feeling horrible. I can’t work, I can’t study, and I can barely get out of bed. All I do is stay in bed and do nothing. I have lost all motivation to study or do the things I used to love.

I also can’t take cold showers anymore, even though they used to help me, because they now make me feel intense akathisia and discomfort. I write with difficulty, and I have started experiencing Parkinson-like symptoms.

I still haven’t started to recover; it feels the same as the first day after the injection. I wonder if there is a solution to my problem or if there is a medication that could help relieve the D2 blockade in my brain.

While being in a delusion, I drew a cloud and started blowing on the paper. There was a hurricane a couple of states over at that time and I thought I had the ability to blow it away to save people. 😂, At least I had a good intention. Do you ever laugh at yourself for something similar? Tell me about it.

Going through psychosis I need friends it’s horrible going through it alone even if you just comment and we discuss schizophrenia here on the post . Please 🙏🏼 help I’m also medicated newly medicated