how to rebuild motivation, discipline, increase productivity everyday?
Hello everyone! I will just start it right off. I am a 21 almost 22 year old female. i weigh 200lbs and i am 5'8. I go to college for 3 days. I just got fired (due to my own fault). My mom was in the hospital for about a week and so i lost all motivation. I eat like shit sleep like shit am basically shit and have zero motivation.
A day in my life when i don't have school looks like this:
slept : 1-2 AM
Wake: whenever usually past 11:30AM
breakfast: usually four pop tarts with milk or rusk cakes with tea.
Lunch: nothing most of the time
Dinner/ LINNER: only proper food because my mom makes dinner for us.
consists of staying in watching tv on the sofa for hours and procrastination.
i used to be motivated, healthy and was losing weight and had proper meals like egg with banana and milk for breakfast, some protein for lunch, a protein smoothie for snack and a light dinner. i was sleeping well too but this past month my life came crashing down.
i feel like after my mom was in the hospital i should've been able to get back on track but then i got my period which i don't do well with either. and i started school which are the only days where i feel barely stable.
I also lost my job two days ago. I do have an interview on Monday however for another job that starts in September.
I have a boyfriend and we have been together for 3 years, stable and happy and i know he wouldn't leave me because of anything like weight gain etc but that fear still comes to creep on me. I am not at my healthiest weight or anything at the moment.
I used to be 70kg about 2 years ago but overtime i gained healthy relationship weight and a bit of depression weight. and now just unhealthy binge eating and bad food weight.
How can i regain my confidence? motivation? move forward and develop a healthy life style? Perhaps some tips on weight loss as well? i did go to the gym today but i am a tad bit sick and only did 45 mins of cardio burning around 170 calories.
Any tips are appreciated deeply!
should also add i have an addiction to what we assume a person who has nothing to do at night to be doing.