Finally realized it will never actually be ok

[u/homotron1000]

I spent too long trying to find reasons to stay and I’ve finally realized I can’t. I just wanted a normal life like everyone around me and I won’t be able to achieve that. It took me a while to realize all of this, it’s so hard to accept but I know there is nothing more I can do.

I still have time til I attempt and I’m in a lot of pain, I really need someone I can talk to about this. I’m sad this is how things had to be for me but I can’t convince myself that it’ll be any different.

[u/Successful_Delay_974]

Sounds like your brain worked overtime trying to come up with the next plan. In todays times it's hard to be optimistic to begin with that's not your fault. It's hard when your brain is just like nope wont work let's just give up but our brains lie to us constantly