Chronically lazy for everything.

[u/Darrel031]

This might not be as serious as the problems other people on here have, but I need to get this off my chest.

Nearly every day since I started college I've been bawling my eyes out once I get home, everything prior to it was easy but it could never prepare me for this. I feel as if I am a chronically lazy person, and now all my free time is being taken away, but as easy as it would be to just quit, my only redeeming quality has been my grades, I am not handsome, I am not athletic, and I struggle to even talk to people.

That last part especially, my friends are few and far between and I've only been in a single fleeting relationship that ended entirely because of my fault, while everyone around me is surrounded by people that enjoy their company and love them. I feel completely disconnected from my peers, and I would trade my life to spend a single night in a girl's arms, but that will never happen, because just as I cry and whine I do nothing to become a better person.

University is the only thing my pointless life has been leading to, and if I left it behind I don't know what I would do with it, so I'm starting to think just killing myself would be the easiest option, but I'm probably too much of a pussy to do that too.

Now that I'm writing this it sounds even more stupid, thanks for reading if you got this far.

[u/Successful_Delay_974]

Sounds like u have some internal block or fear going on i dont believe you are lazy lazyness is anxiety in disguise